Hyderabad Calling...

And I am answering the call.

I never thought I would feel this way. Rounds and rounds of shopping done, lists made, planned and re-planned everything, empty shelves, bags packed,  clean room and my heart - filled with vacuum.

Amusingly, Most my bags are filled with "Blue" color. I don't know why I choose that color each time I shop. When someone asks me for my favorite color, I say "Black" or even "White" or "depends" but still I choose blue when given a choice!
And right now, I am Blue!

Cried like a baby when my mother talked about being an independent girl and taking care of myself in Hyderabad. I always wanted this life but my empty room makes me feel so depressed. Writing this post is another atrocious experience.

All final preparations have been done, Last calls from best friends and last messages from cousins have been wrapped up. But how should I wrap up this empty feeling?

Like I am running away from my responsibilities, Like I am losing something very near to me, Like I am being self centered and pursuing my dreams on cost of my duties. Duties of being my parent's kid, of being a friend, of being there for people who have always been there for me, of being a shoulder to cry on when mum had something to share!!
I love my mom, grandmother, my dad n even "my brother"!!

Why can't I stay at home? Why am I so aspirational?  Why can't I make a future in the city where I was born? Why am I doing this.... to myself and my near ones? Why is it so important to constantly keep running?

Anyways, my priorities are set, the choices are made, and I made them.
My parents supported me through out with this and I just can't thank them enough for believing me and my dreams. My mom has always been my support system and somewhere I want to live upto her expectations , thus the chase... thus the burning desire to be the best! I don't know how crucial this move is in to shape my future, how much I will be able 2 achieve out of it, how much worth it is of all the sacrifice..

All I know is, its now or never.
And I don't want to regret later for the choices I made.
Its not easy, well nothing is!
And I am going to give it my best shot.

So, adios to everyone! I may be busy there but gimme a call whenever you want to! I'll always be there!
Love You Guys!!

P.S: I'll especially miss you: Neha ! the long conversations on phone, the shopping, the coffee n the couches, your advice, n everything!!  I'll miss them all! Please stay in touch!! Love you...

Wish

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On a busy day
I stop by the coffee shops
Just for a sip or two
Not that I am addicted to it
But to you…

Each time I sit in coffee shops
My memories of you faded…
They come and they go…

So wonderful….
Oh! How we met...
a cup of coffee
whiff of those arometic beans
with little reason or rhyme
in the corner of the cafe...

Those subtle thoughts
the little words
Smiling, Laughing, Relaxing
Over coffee,
at your favorite little cafe

I didn’t speak
The look on your eyes
expressed your soul
your voice so compelling

Every word you spoke
touched my soul
the tone of your passion
and the way you could pause my thoughts

As the caffeine surges through me
and brings my body to life
I wish you were here…
This time too..

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Hidden

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You love him
He doesn‘t love you back. You need him
He doesn't need you back
He leaves
And all you do is
Wait.

For him to take notice
For him to call you once
Just cling onto all the memories, all the fun times
Force your needs upon him
He suffocates, He quits
And you still don’t stop haunting his lives.

He doesn't wanna make things messy
But does he understand you?
Does he realise
What does he mean to you?
And then realization strikes

And start your desperate attempts to act
like you don’t care..
But the truth remains
Its all hidden there in you.

No matter how many  parties you attend
how many vodka shots you gulp
No matter how much you bitch
You tell yourself that you ‘deserve better’
No matter how much you stare at the screen of your phone
And how many hours you stand at the door
No matter how much you wish with all your heart
That you could hear from him one last time..

He doesn't trace his path back
And you continue your endless directionless wait
Every passing day....

P.S. To every girl who still waits,
Yes, patience is a virtue. But do you deserve being treated like that?

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Undying Love...

I am not good with fiction. But I liked the concept of 77 fiction. So here's my first attempt...

It was his birthday. She was going to meet him…

Dressed in the best gown, she looked beautiful. Excited, she left home with her charming smile.

She reached there to find complete silence. She could even hear her heart beat!
She moved ahead and touched his grave. She could still feel him. She moved ahead, kept the beautiful flowers she had brought for him and kissed his grave. With tears in her eyes and a promise to come back, she left...

Unconditional Love...

It happened a long time ago
When a dove met a crow
She used to coo, he crowed,
And soon they fell in love...

Mr. Crow took her out for dinner
And ordered the best of egg-crunch
Lady Dove gasped in incredulity
On seeing the death of some prospective chicks...

She would have nearly swooned
Had not Mr. Crow fluttered in delirium,
Made her sip some cool raspberry;
And call for a plate of cheese cupcakes.

With a gulp of the cool drink
Lady Dove accepted their odd takes
And while she nibbled on the cupcakes
As Mr. Crow ordered baked shrimp...

It happened a long time ago
That a crow met a dove
She cooed, He used to crow;
They never got out of love....

A splendiferous dream...

... and there he was. He slid next to me on the couch, wrap his arm around my waist and hugged me in an embrace. I could smell the whiff of his scent, a mix of sweat and cologne. It was so real I gasped, giggled and woke up.

A strange but beautiful dream. I want to go back to sleep now...

My support system!

another dedication post! This time on valentine’s day :-)

Dedicated to the 35 important and influencing people in my life

Important because they supported me when I could see no friendly face around;
Important because I can’t imagine my life without them
Important because I care about them, in the same way that they care about me.
Important because I love them and I know I don’t say it enough.

So here they are; the most influential and imperative set of people to me (in no particular order)

Mom: I love the way you trust me blindly. I am proud of you the way you are! I love you!

Payal kalra: You are one of the first people to know if I am upto anything. You are one person I wanna hold onto all my life for pep-talks. You always manage to show me sense in a directionless path and that makes you special. Whatever anyone might say, I can trust you with my life. And you give good advice at midnight. love you sweetoo!

Neha Gupta: Our friendship has last so long that I have now begun to feel its magnificence. 8 years? Eh? Thanks for being around gal, your friendship has been a sheer delight!

Neha Gupta(college): college would be different if you were not around. Keep in touch. Love you..

Deepali Singh: My guide through music and someone who continues to remind me that I have a long way to go in Guitar :-P

Pragati Joon :-) I don’t have enough words, but yea, you do come in this list :-) Thanks for being there when I needed you.

Preeti Rani: . You made keeping my time table at college really easy, Thank-you.

Baisil K Joseph: One of the sweetest guys I know. You are a gr8 friend!

Vikas Bhagat: Influencial? Ofcourse. My course instructor and philosopher n guide. I take this opportunity 2 thank you sir, for constantly pumping in the required energy in all of us. You are the best.

Ashish Sahijani: we used to go to school together. I was too small at that time but you were my best buddy that time! I miss you somewhere down my heart!

Akanksha: My friend all through CA-CPT. Please forgive me for not keeping in touch. Thinking of you will always bring a smile to my face.

Kanika Vij: You are a gr8 friend gal. I fondly remember all the fun times I had with you. I hope you feel the same way about me, tc!

Nishith Bahety: I am sure u’ll do well in life. Good luck!!

Deepali Gupta: Yea, Happy Valentine’s Day sweetheart! If not in school, after school you are one of the people I fondly remember of childhood days.

Yukti Singhal: I ve probably not said that too many times, but yes, you matter to me. We have not spent ages together, thanks to the final year, but I value our friendship.

Apoorva Bhardwaj: your simplicity and strength is enviable. You were my first friend at the college. Love you..

Piyush Awasthi: You rock! But I am still waiting to see you perform. Ping me when you perform next time!

Priyanka Jain: As confused and directionless as me. I know we don’t talk much now a days, but there was a phase when I used to wait all day to talk to you in the evening. I don’t know how much it made a difference to you, but on me, it had a very different kind of impact. You are a special friend Pri! yes, my rock guru :-P

Aashia Mathur: metro helped us come close. I find you are the best one at the college! Keep in touch!

Surbhi Jain: One of my very good friends and definitely one person I am proud of. I am sorry if I have ever hurt you.

Vaishali Jain: you remind me of a question mark(oops!). but all I know is that you are very good at heart!

Shagun Taneja: motto, You are one of the friendliest people I have come across till date. I love your spirit gal. Keep rocking!

Neha bhardwaj:: All the advices and all the chatting. You are cute, and I like you just the way you are. No matter what, stay the same.

Swati Aggarwal: Aashia Mathur helped me know you well. A sweet down to earth girl! Take care!

Rishabh Thukral: I got to know you on the trekking trip! and well, it has been an absolute delight knowing you :-). [Yea, you don’t sing well :-P]

Suraj singhal: your commitment to work sometimes annoys me! All I can say is, keep in touch!

Pankit Narang: the gullible guy at school has grown up now! Its fun to be around with you and your jokes no more bore me!

Anshu sharawat: You are such a sweet heart! Helped us pass through 11th standard! Thanks a lot! I value your friendship!

Purti Soni: you are the coolest head girl I know. May you reach all heights. one friend I wanna treasure for life. A gem of a friend, definitely!

Paramjeet Rana: a rebellion. I could never make it up with you at school. But, now it seems to have changed! And Thanks for always keeping a seat for me at NGPA!

Jyoti Gupta: a kiddo! I am glad we made friends. Take good care and keep in touch!

Suman: haven’t spent a lot of time with you but your company seems to be doing good to me! All I can say is that stay honest, stay good!

Ritika gupta: You have been a friend, cute and smart little friend dear. Hope it stays that way. :-)

Prerna: stop doing the chichoragiri* after the college! Get back home early and study! Lol.. the other kidding is fine, but I am glad that we are such special kind of friends.

Simmi Bhasin: my maths teacher in 5th standard. I was too young to say that but I totally loved you ma’m. you always helped me to perform to my best capabilities. I miss you mam!

I can never include every-one who matters, but then these are the ones who are like life-support systems to me.
Happy Valentine's Day everyone.

Happy Valentine's Day!!

Today is a day just like any other. It is no more special than yesterday or tomorrow. No doubt, it’s Valentine's Day! But it's been 2 years when I lost someone I loved. I planned the rest of my life with him and it fell apart right before my eyes on a cold Sunday night.

But this is not a sad story.

This is a happy story.

This guy made me who I am today. Without him I wouldn't be the person that I need to be. I learned so much from him and through our relationship. It was tough and it was hard, but you can't learn from it if it doesn't hurt.

I am thankful for my past. I am thankful for my present. I am thankful for my future.

I say all that to say, after a break up its okay to be mad. It's okay to be angry and it's okay to be hurt. But after all that, be grateful, be thankful and be happy. Take it from one use-to-be heartbroken girl. After it's all said and done, the pain subsides, the memories fade, and there is hope and life still ahead. I just wish someone would have told me it would eventually be this good. It just takes time.
Lots and lots of time.

I encourage you to move on and let it be.
Forgive and forget.
All you can do is try to do it better the next time around and hope for the best.
Guard you heart and keep your standards high.
But "The One" is out there, he's just waiting for the most perfect unexpected time to sweep you off your feet...

I grow cold...

All your words,
Worth their weight in gold.
The times we spent together,
And we grew old.

All those moments where I blindly trusted you,
And closed my eyes.
Thinking that's you in real,
And not some disguise.

All those doubts,
That I put to rest.
Thinking you would give me nothing else,
But only your best.

And you chose to walk away,
Without an inkling of remorse.
Putting my faith to test,
Leaving me clueless in a forest so dense.

I thought you were my sunshine,
To stare the clouds of gloom away.
But you led me to my loss of innocence,
As I grow cold every day.

It's You...

I need you to realize
How much I need you in my life
You keep me alive
And i'll always fight for you

Every word I write
I'm always thinking about you
Every song I sing
is with ur face engrossed in my mind

Cuz I love you
And I need you
you are my guiding light
To whats true
thats me and you
forever my heart is in your hands....

Every smile i make
is so true cuz i'm truly happy
Every day i awake
I thank god for giving me you

well i know sometimes
I've made mistakes
I've gone and choose the wrong way
But I need to know

that i'll always love and only need you